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The hour is foolish; it is past the working day but before comfortable settling in of evening. In or out, either way, I am exhausted.

I am 40 41 years old. When I was 31 I had the apocalyptic realization that many things about my life were wrong. I was following a model of living that denied who I was--the hero's journey. I am a heroine, not a hero. When I got off the hero's path, I was wandering in the wilderness. There were monsters....

For about a year, I floundered around, and fixed myself up a bit.

Then I had an opportunity to turn my love life from a constantly ill-fitting mess to something amazing. I grabbed at it, and held on. Especially when letting go would have been easier. We hung in there for four years, then we blossomed into a most wonderful garden of love and support.

Meanwhile, my career was gnawing at my bones, eating my health, creativity, and vitality from the inside out. I fought and pounded against it for three long years. Then the perfect graduate program came along at the perfect time. Two more years rushed by, crammed with job-work and school-work. But now I've graduated to a new career that brings me satisfaction and joy.

After nine years of constant yanking and pushing at my life to get it where I want to be, I am exhausted. This is my last puzzle piece: to end being overweight, having no energy, suffering mild depression, fighting IBS, and having food cravings. 

The plan: Julia Ross' The Diet Cure. AFTER 9 MONTHS THIS PLAN LEFT ME SICKER.
The plan: Working with an integrative medicine doctor.

I just bought the book today. I will read it and formulate a plan and follow it. And I will report on the results of these endeavors here.


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